1. |
Dirty
03:13
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Hook:
Every place
That we go’s
Got a problem
Dirty problems
That’s okay
If we don’t know
Then we don’t got em
Dirty problems
Leave it 'lone
It might grow
To thirty problems
Dirty problems
We don’t know
We don’t know
Then we don’t got 'em
Verse 1:
I see a trail of ants along the wall like
"Ew gross"
Mama bought the house I think but somehow we are still broke
I’m seven sitting on my window sill, woke
2 days no sleep, ain’t no difference in this filth though
An aerosol can of Raid is how we fill holes
Till the air is all gas sprayed into our ill throats
Always stare at walls, half naked with the quilts close
It ain’t fair at all I feel naked I need real clothes
And I need real guidance
I don’t care if you could a save dollar mama with the knockoff
We need real items
Always say to buckle up and then tell us to duck cuz you don’t want the police C'mon ma just get a real license
You don’t feel like it
So you won’t do it
I see the same roach everyday
Today I spoke to it
And it told me
"Damn you’re really going through it"
But you won’t know until you go through it
Hook
Verse 2:
And this charade I'm tryna keep up
Where I don’t say that half of the garage is where I sleep up
Is silly because I invent the problems that I think of
And I have yet to hear a person comment when we link up
But I’m an addict in all of the negative
When I don’t have it I look where to get it then
If I could get it there, that’s where I head again
That’s why I’m making no mental development
That’s why I’m taking no man as a gentleman
That’s why I hate, that’s why I flake
When I meet people cuz I don’t got etiquette
They all been living their lives with the better shit
We had like nothing
You had like either
Using my finger to scrape ice from the freezer
Hungry
That’s how we were
But you can’t get medicine with no signs of fever
We were moving away
To a new place, to a new job
Suitable pay, beautiful not
Everything beautiful’s bought
I can do anything you can do
But anything you can do I can do everything you can do wrong
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2. |
EL
03:12
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Verse 1:
As a kid
I went through a combative phase
Hated every single person in the planet’s face
Always quiet, always distant, always mad at days
Often I felt nonexistent, I just added space
And you were present so you didn’t understand the rage
So much resentment
Though you’d always say I had it made
It was incessant
But you chalked it up to classic angst
An adolescent
At that awkward and dramatic age
But damn, it ached
Couldn’t tell you what I had to say
That I dad, I hate that I’m damaged and I act a way
That dad, I ain’t what you imagined but I can’t parade
Around like I’m some other person that I can’t portray
And dad, I break knowing all the time we have can fade
Lack of faith
My body in a fragile state
Dad, I’m brave
But I also am afraid
Cuz just like you
I don’t know how to handle pain
Hook:
El es mí papa
El es mí papa
Pero el es mí papa
El es mí papa
Verse 2:
The night you found me in the driveway hunched over
You thought somebody drugged me up until you rushed closer
Smelt the drunk odor on me while I shrugged shoulders
Until I woke up in the hospital somewhat sober
And then you told me what my options were for us forward
I told you I would be more cautious and not cut corners
But you know how defensive I get at someone’s orders
And how I pretend I’m confident and much older
But it had gotten worse
It was not the first
That the pot was stirred
I was not concerned
If l left and I did not return
Felt a lot of things
Acted out
Thought a lot of words
Questioned my whole being
What’s the reason I’d been brought to earth
Always on your nerves
Picking fights
Always on the verge
Pissed you off so much
That one night
You picked me by the shirt
Told me what it was
Really I got what I deserved
You were in tough in love
But I think it might’ve worked
Bridge:
You heard the news
And didn’t know what was coming
Ran out the room
Your whole damn world, it was crumbling
And I never knew just how much that you loved me
But you had my back
And now I know that you love me
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3. |
Healing (V2)
03:10
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Verse 1:
I feel pain when it’s cloudy, when it's windy
I’ll never be the same
With this metal mounted in me
Forgiven who’s to blame
But won’t forget about it quickly
We’re women and we change
With or without the injury
And no amount of limping’s gonna make me bad
Take my soul,
Break my spirit,
Though it makes me mad
I still won’t show up to the hearing like
"The case is cracked
Your honor, send her ass to jail
She just played your ass
Though I know deep down
She’s afraid of that
Accountability
That’s something we’re afraid to have
Without mobility
I always had to wait on staff
No dignity
My bed is where they gave my baths
They make a face and ask
"If she was drunk why’d you get in the car with her?"
And then they shut up when I explain the crash
Motherfucker
My summer turned to dark winter
You think we did that shit for fun?
You think I’m made of cash?
The truth is,
I wouldn’t take it back
Grateful that it happened in the way it has
Careful where you go
Cuz life
That shit really changes fast
Verse 2:
And call it fate, call it tragedy
Every night I dreamt when I’d awake that I’d go back to sleep
I didn’t want to wake unless my leg would change up magically
I was filled with hate, I didn’t know it till it snapped in me
Couldn’t help but turn it into something it didn’t have to be
Couldn’t help but turn it on the other body at the scene
Didn’t see the shame didn’t didn’t think I had to see
I’m just as much to blame
The only difference is she had the keys
Now we know what the consequences of our actions mean
Life is cold and you don’t know it till you lack the heat
We go slow and we both show it when we pass the streets
On the road staying so focused
Sitting strapped in seats
And it’s more motive knowing it all can repeat
We chose growing all this did was plant the seed
All those moments spent at the rehab and we
Go toward the only way we can be freed
Bridge:
Now it ain’t like how it was then
But we wouldn’t change it for nothin'
And we keep the memory close by
And I love that we both know why
Even if they don’t know
This, that
Yeah, should’ve done this
Yeah, whoa
Should’ve done that
I’ve been told
What if it- yeah
I don’t know
Talking 'bout
x2
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4. |
Waited
03:14
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Hook:
I put aside any kind of fun cuz
I was waiting up for the one but
Nothing ended up happening, nothing
And I let every opportunity by
Even though I knew what I was doing wasn't right
And I got nothing out of it, I got nothing
If I just didn't whine about what I need then
I'd probably have what I want
Don't tell me how to run myself, I can run
I can run
Verse 1:
I had a dream I rubbed the lamp, I made a wish
Heard that you was rolling with a big shot
Need a lift I’m pulling on the rickshaw
I’m the guinea pig, y'know that makes me pissed off
I just hit a brick wall, I just hit my sixth call,
Got no written response
That’s how it is huh?
Wish I wasn’t this lost but I had no hints dropped
Putting pieces where they fit hun you a jigsaw
I keep thinking that you left me on pause
Fillers start to fill up all our empty long walks
Items that I’d give ya are already long gone
And I bet you had to hit up every sketchy pawnshop
Just to get rid of my scent
I’ve been in my head
A lot of people coming
Think they’re coming for my neck
I was waiting up so much I never wondered why you left
I’m the one that everyone’s just kinda running from I guess
So I guess
Hook
Verse 2:
Took one step in the journey
And then you looked back
Whenever you did me that dirty
You made me look bad
Can’t believe I let it burn me
I never should have
I’m living and learning
But all of that’s whooping my ass
And I had a fit
I can admit
I was a child
And a bigot
Had no desire but I had to give in
I was always so idle and that was a big
problem
In which knew I had to fix
My bad habits on repeat and this I knew had to mix
Had to change it up in hopes that you would notice
Are we breaking up or no? I need to know this
If I was raking up that dough then we’d be loaded
But I guess you were saving up for more and think I’d blow it
Whoever said pain is love is nothing but a bonehead
You just moved away into a what? and wait it’s
coed?
It’s like everything you’re saying to me’s making no sense
Turning me away while I was busy making no friends
Hook
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5. |
Deluzional
03:25
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Verse 1:
I wonder where you are
Cuz you fell off the radar
And me, I’m always armed
I shoot my shot just like an AR
Can’t tell if you are hard to get or you just like to play hard
Cuz I would give an arm and leg but you just like to break hearts
I know it’s kind of nutty if I say that I felt a spark
Like butterflies in tummies or like trees with both our names carved
But I don’t want somebody if it’s just the talking stage part
You make me feel like a fucking walking graveyard
Hook:
Do you like me?
What the fuck
Do you like me?
What the fuck
Verse 2:
You like to draw
So now I fucking hate art
No wait
Grab my jaw
Yeah like it when you take charge
And if I have it wrong
Well, that’s my kind of my trademark
I listen to my heart
What’s the fun in being brain smart?
Tell me what you want
I don’t care if what you say’s harsh
Cold then maybe hot
Walk with sandals and like eight scarves
Sometimes I feel lost
In my head just tryna chase stars
And sometimes I’m a dog
But I bet we got the same bark
And I don’t understand
Why the fuck you wouldn’t want me
I’m a fucking catch
I get hotter when I talk mean
I wanna be the artist that’ll
Pop up in your top three
The image you see often when you go unlock your lock-screen
You motherfucking bitch
You talk your shit so nonchalantly
Don’t act like everything you post is something I do not see
Cuz I see everything
I see everything
On god’s green
Earth
Don’t act like what I send you
You do not read
Verse 3:
You’ve been on my mind forever
Ever since that night together
Faded, faded, faded
So there’s not a lot that I remember
You were kind of fake so all my friends don’t know why I defend ya
But regret, I hate and wonder where and what it might’ve led to
I might be delusional
But I think that i’m twice as better
As the people that you date and like
I’m like the right contender
Right in front of you
If you could see it, you’d say
"I surrender"
I would say I like you and then strap you to a lie detector
I’m batshit crazy
And I got the highest temper
I am so in love with bitches who don’t show the slightest effort
Bitches who hate me
Bitches spotty like a leopard
Bitches with a body that a hundred bodies might’ve entered
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6. |
BONUS: Thelma & Lucy
03:01
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Lucy Camp San Jose, California
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