Virago [Mixtape]

by Lucy Camp

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The theme behind this mixtape revolves around the two very separate definitions of Virago.Virago is defined as a bad-tempered woman, a shrew. A woman so assertive. At the same time, Virago holds the meaning of a strong willed woman who steps out of the expected domestic role. Some songs in "Virago" address the small worth of a woman's word, the impact desired to be made by those who have been discouraged throughout adolescence, the inability to grasp the raw reality of division between two former spirited bodies, and much more. Although some subjects may be broad, there are all kinds of different messages in each song.

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released December 20, 2014

Many beat makers helped me out with this mixtape. I was offered many instrumentals but did not end up using all of them. I'd like to thank all of the contributions from the producers in this mixtape.

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Track Name: M.I.T.W (Prod. Mike C.)
M.I.T.W (Music Is The Way) - Lucy Camp

Run from the law
Are you coming or not?
That's the kind of thing I need to know now
Fuck what you want
Taking that tone like you're ready to get thrown out
Stuck in a spot
I ain't 'bout to do the whole confetti but a showdown
Worry 'bout your little petty pronouns
I ain't 'bout to worry about something I'm not
Not, definitely
There's no other way to put it delicately
I paid my price wrote the check in quickly
Yeah you got money but look extra guilty
Dirty rich bitch might've felt so filthy
Melt the Milky Way, felt so silky
The world in my hand like I held it pristine
The option to sell I could sell the buildings
The world

Hello would you like to break me? Well you're a derivative baby
Ticklish, diminutive, and shaky
This is indicative of a minimum maybe
I'm in it to make it and I'm waiting
If I win it and take it am I saving
Any kid with a wit and a nice placing?
I admit I'm a bit surprised facing
Living a life of "I hate me", strangely
Giving them eye, I'm blind daily, faintly
I don't know why I might get so angry
What kind of a lie did I make? I'm making
Execution, death
Just cuz I run out of breath doesn't imply that I'm not so ready to set
The death threat the dead to dead debt no depth effect yet
You wanna feel what I feel when I'm left?
I don't appeal not ideal to the theft
I'd like a meal ima kneel to the chef
What a deal what a steal on the real I'm impressed
Move, you got a lot of veal on your vest
You don't talk to the famille (familia) you're a guest
It don't matter 'bout the heels or the dress
Demand real respect

I run from the law when I love it is wrong
I do what I need she does what she wants
Dumb and a broad, when I'm done you applaud
Better come you are not, gonna run You are not
Gonna jump, trust me I'm nothing you thought
Got your little tongue tied got your tongue in a knot
Young and I nod, nod, nod, shrug and I yawn bitch
Think you might've just messed with the wrong chick
Oh wait yeah check it out mosh pit
Costed
Off with the clothes that we shoplift
Often
Caution your shit's soft it's complicated
Oh we talk communicated, yeah I lost but I'm not hatin at least I was nominated
You were not even a single thought that made it
Chick I taught you, graded
The shit I bought you, save it
Do not believe a wobbly chick I know you hesitated
So wrong, how come I waited
So long, I even made it
Your song, from all the things I made you do I only made you more strong
When you fall nighty nighty
Looking all high and mighty
You call yourself so pristine that's what you call tidy whitey
I don't like when you don't like me
I don't take that shit so lightly
You fist bump me then bump my shit must be nice I spit politely
Track Name: Grey (Prod. DublinBeats)
"Grey" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
Live as an adult, look at that
I ain't been the one to be to look at that
I don't even know what a book bag is, no I can't tell you where the book is at
But I can tell you where to look a man up and down, until you put him back on ground
Yeah one time mom was mad, no dad, her hands, she shook a man
No man she said has good in him
But my dad has the whole neighborhood in him
Too strung up on that foot of sin, I hate it when you talk about what could've been
Cuz it's not, it's different from your lot
We are no hoodlums, what you got is just so good and I'm just so caught in what you're cooking em
Wait 'til we get to meet a tattoo, it's a permanent fundamental taboo
We're so determined to be getting in and at you
Hope you feel the burden of a verse with no value
You mean nothing, we mean nothing, who am i to count you
I'm the biggest thing that's coming, be the biggest thing without you

Chorus:
You leave us for clowns
You leave up for down
Grey color the sky, sky
Someday you're gonna find, sun rays don't really shine
I grey colored the sky, down down down
You leave us for crowns
Money and all them gowns
Grey color the sky, sky
Someday you're gonna find, sun rays don't really shine
I grey colored the sky, down down down

Verse 2:
Mother nature, she mutters nature
Not no muffin oven maker
We said we won't love a baker
Bread ain't hard to make so why waste time waging on other labor?
You hate what I love to savor, taste a bowl reluctant favor, taste your soul disgusting flavor
Man you're so disgusting, later
We just all discussed it, traitor
Don't know why you lust to break her, you're the one who lust to make her
I cannot just stuff it if there's one thing that I must convey(er)
Something I believe in, you know very well I trust a hater
Found you, yeah you just found you
Lose, I'm 'bout to show you how to
Choose, something big as house and boos
Ditch that liquor, douse the shoes
You don't need that house of blues you live in
I'll announce the news
All your friends and all your family they all look so proud of you

Chorus:
You leave us for clowns
You leave up for down
Grey color the sky, sky
Someday you're gonna find, sun rays don't really shine
I grey colored the sky, down down down
You leave us for crowns
Money and all them gowns
Grey color the sky, sky
Someday you're gonna find, sun rays don't really shine
I grey colored the sky, down down down

Verse 3:
Damn I think I outed you, I don't know what now to do
I see your face upset but I'm confused as to how you knew
I guess I'm just as loud as you
Guess I'm just confounded too
Doubted me, i doubted you
I loved you like the mouth I grew
Loved you like the fountain youth
Loved you like the outcome you would have become without me who
needs someone without boundaries, you
Shouting through the busty window frowning at the howling moon
I guess I'm your surrounding nothing more than a dismounting roof
Track Name: 2 Cents (Prod. Decap and Phillipdrummond)
"2 Cents" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
Put dirt on all your cuts, to say my walk is killer's like a murder when i strut
And I don't want to kill her no i work her just enough
But this stuff is like gorillas when I hurt her in my bluff
I got a purpose in this stuff, gotta grade my own assignments
Open up these stitches and escape my own confinement
Open up to bitches who do hate my own enticement
You notice how she twitches when she's faking her excitement?
I know I'm no expert, slices of a cake
Don't even got a network, divided in the states
But I feel a little effort, to ride along the way
Can get the light of all the day, to come to rise among the shade
See they got it all wrong thinking tightness is the gate
Sizes are the fate of where their prizes come to gape
His mind is in a state where it is like him just to take
But a man who runs a world should know a hymen doesn't break

Chorus:
Love from the best, learn through a lover's preface
Holdin onto daddy just cuz it gets mother jealous
It's what I do, it's what I do best
There ain't much value to some words and that's why they call it two cents
(x2)

Verse 2:
It goes uppity, down
It strings a puppetry frown
I think then suddenly, everyone is jumping around
Fighting for custody, they are looking at me and towns
You know, luckily she never got an ugly gown
Cuz see the duckling did what the duckling felt
Shouting for her babies she always has something to yell
Guiding the babies through the quiet hope the suckling helps
And if it doesn't well my dad he be buckling belt
Come on muscles and wealth
You got a little girl pregnant, on her knuckles she knelt
That ain't even the last segment, talking double the dealt
Double the mortgage, double the care, double affairs, you know that double is hell
He went away, I wonder if he bust out of jail
The last time I ever put my trust in a male
He put my young up for sale,
Said I'd be punished and failed
This is our secret baby girl so you run with the tale

Chorus:
Love from the best, learn through a lover's preface
Holdin onto daddy just cuz it gets mother jealous
It's what I do, it's what I do best
There ain't much value to some words and that's why they call it two cents
(x2)

Verse 3:
Here he comes, he's coming
With some new fresh honey
Got that loose end money
Said if you left honey, it would be so bad for you, cuz you'd be coming back to me and I would make you magically regret it ever happening
Regret you running
When I sent you running
And I let you buddy up and let you study
Wanna rescue puppies and caress you money
When you told me you were honest god bless too funny
Track Name: Astray (Prod. BeenJAmmiN)
"Astray" -Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
I don't wanna be the one to tempt him, give him all attention, make him think I meant him, then sit
Watch him grounded in tension, oppression
I need to put an end to this friendship, then split
Dear, why the when, oh what I said slipped
Sped skipped, into another direct hit
My bed flips, did you see the color? It spread quick
Like head trips, all I need to cover is dead lips and dead hips
Saw him in the "sad again" entrance
Could barely see a tack of resemblance
He said it was all bad what had happened to vengeance
Damn you should know my habit's bad in attendance
I like to think I'm mad independent, they put me onto trial yeah my man's the defendant
And I'm the offended, I'm not accused but I'm packed with resentment

Chorus:
You just want an arm to grab (I don't want you)
You just want a heart to have (You don't want me)
You don't like my art I'm glad cuz
You don't want a part in that
(x2)

Verse 2:
Run to him, run to him, friend with him
Then you forget why you're friends with him
Fuck a friend who's a bread winner, bred with him
He's got the breath of a bred when you french with him
"Trust no one" is quite a threat to him
When you lust some much its life set to him
Honey just one touch is like head to him
So go ahead and head to him
See I don't need an extra limb
If I wanted it I wouldn't have just left it grim
I said i wanted focus but i fed the whim
And I said i wasn't open but I let him in
Yeah I let him in, door wide open and his sweat to skin
You and I both are like a pet to sin
And we like to kiss doubt from the neck to chin
How could I be so negligent (x4)

Chorus:
You just want an arm to grab (I don't want you)
You just want a heart to have (You don't want me)
You don't like my art I'm glad cuz
You don't want a part in that
(x2)
Track Name: Virago (Prod. Siggie Qu)
"Virago" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
You ever feel your hair receding?
And the gripping of your hand cuz you don't care for bleeding much
So the stares, receiving such of it's embarrassing to clutch
And you feel married to someone who is embarrassing to touch
It's like you're inheriting their plunge
You jump I jump we're preparing for the lunge
Yet I'm scared to see you run, if you jump and I don't jump who gets buried for the stunt?
I'm thinking parenting is tough
To be sharing what you're swearing is enough
It's repairing what you scuff, it's comparing both of us
To a very open rough patch, carried in the mud
To hate who you are for declaring who you love

Chorus:
Virago so stigmata
Stick, so little, lot of
Flick is all I do
I leave it's me
I'm all I got
I'm all I see
I'm all I spot
I'm all I need
I'm all I'm not
I fall, I bleed
I fall, I'm caught up
In this thing I'm all I gotta

Verse 2:
And what you think about that cradling position?
With your ladle in the dishes
Little wages in addition, duck a table when he's fuckin little ladies in your kitchen
But I never scream once, so stable my condition
'Bout uh seventeen months since the hateful proposition
Look into these hazel eyes enable broader visions
Lick you to your naval, eyes fatal in collision
Wanna rid yourself of fable guys, labels, and decisions
I know what you just say you like, say I'm wrong, say you're right
You and I like day and night but I don't feel I play the light
In fact I think my shade is bright,
Not many would've gave their life
You need one I had tons simple so I gave you mine
Out of nowhere crazy like, tellin me I pay no time
But when I have the money you be yellin at me "wait in line"
Flash me red or green or something yellow to me say the sign
Cuz I can't stand the mellow moody motions of the same old ride

Chorus:
Virago so stigmata
Stick, so little, lot of
Flick is all I do
I leave it's me
I'm all I got
I'm all I see
I'm all I spot
I'm all I need
I'm all I'm not
I fall, I bleed
I fall, I'm caught up
In this thing I'm all I gotta

Verse 3:
Better shut up, boy I'm on the come up
I don't know what you've been thinking, poison got your dumb up
You be begging to me, crying to me
Boy you are a suck up
Ima give you every chance, don't you disappoint a fuck up
Now you missed the point no luck in what you do
It's so easy when you suck him and its new
I don't, I don't, do it so you say you will not too
But I think I know you better than uh you
Track Name: One, Two (Prod. Mike C.)
"One, Two" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
I'm the sickest, i hear these voices in my head and you hear crickets
I've seen the choice of all your friends, a bunch of bigots
That boy don't want your bed he wants what's in it
Little ploy he's got a gimmick and you are going to give it
Yeah you may hit him in the groin but it's a ticket to him don't get too particular about the way you lick it
He likes it when you take your time, likes it when you say a rhyme, likes it when you like to make it wicked
Fuck I hate my hand it's much too timid
The touch you give it is enough to cut religion
Straight out of my unconditioned love for you, hey what's my mission?
I'll probably never understand so I won't do the math yo fuck addition
The way you front your vision make me think you drug addicted or you might've chugged the liquid
Cuz you quick to run your lip and act like you ain't told me I'm the one that did it
Got your whole body, soul and your tongue all skippin

Chorus:
Fuck you, why would I ever want to trust you?
You ain't even part of my subgroup
You prolly doin this shit to some crew
3rd one, we ain't gonna be the 1, 2
Why would I ever want to trust you?
You ain't even part of my subgroup
Ima count now so when I reach 3 better run
Now one, two

Verse 2:
Wanna one up me
It might get brutal and bloody
My pupils are bugging out tell me who got the money
I think I might be running out maybe move out the country
I just wanna see beauty and man these humans are ugly
For me they are doing nothing, absolutely fucking
Stupid, the route to becoming something is nothing until it's suited
And damn do I fit the part I have never been so included
When they tell me that I shouldn't
it makes me think I should do it
I'm a tulip, okay but what do you got to give?
Nothing you're just here for my amusement
My presence got a person like you heading to the rubric
Tryna do what I do just so you can say that you did
LuzID may be dead but that doesn't mean that you live
Me sweeping up the ashes from your awful little rap shit cuz I kinda went all batshit is the only time in action where you'll see me with a matching black dustpan and broomstick

Chorus:
Fuck you, why would I ever want to trust you?
You ain't even part of my subgroup
You prolly doin this shit to some crew
3rd one, we ain't gonna be the 1, 2
Why would I ever want to trust you?
You ain't even part of my subgroup
Ima count now so when I reach 3 better run
Now one, two
Track Name: Breed (Prod. The Sound of Color)
Breed (Annie Mal) - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
It severed me severely, but not enough to censor
A centerpiece sincerely I monogamous obsessed her
Cut through infidelity like profitless professors who give anything to stop and pop esophagus aggressors
I'm a consequence of pleasure, hypothesis endeavor
For you to ever leave would take approximate to never
It's a bottomless compressor, she's bottomless you press her
For her to take the heat would make apologists possess her
I want a non-oppressor, two losses, I saw the center
Two talkative top assessors who walked in to drop success as a mock of a non too measured
You watch as I knock the treasure
Soon chalk will be rock and taught in every block and clock in letters
Zoologist, possibly
Quantity over quality
I made my decision bring the monster the atrocity
The father for the prophecy, we can sit and watch the wad of stupidity bubble up and I just wanna watch you

Chorus:
Breed, like the Annie Mal you are
Not once did I think I would beg you to not sing
Breed, like the Annie Mal you are
And if I don't do this thing what will be of your offspring?
Breed, such a stock in the strain when you're lost in the game and you can't figure out why she breed
Can't figure out why she breed (Annie Mal Act x2)

Verse 2:
You can be and breed together, an embarrassment
Amusing how I hold the gloves but I was your experiment
Does it feel good? When you know that you don't care a bit
Scaring him with the glare of a daring staring to swear at him
And she swears that there was rare in him, rarity
Comparing me to the comparison of an apparent parody
Pairing me with the parents of a petty polarity
Plenty poke clarity and I would've done and I would've spoke just about anything
To be, on your side
Now I'm, on your side
And your skin it divides so splenic for the victor
And pathetic for the stricter
Bitch you bet it, I predict her
Had to have an autopsy so photogenic for the picture
Studies show that when a cut, cuts deeper
I can't be caught with a cub or cunt either
Get your cup, fill it up, fill it with blood and dump its liter
Cuz I'm so done been done with a breeder
You can

Chorus:
Breed, like the Annie Mal you are
Not once did I think I would beg you to not sing
Breed, like the Annie Mal you are
And if I don't do this thing what will be of your offspring?
Breed, such a stock in the strain when you're lost in the game and you can't figure out why she breed
Can't figure out why she breed (Annie Mal Act x2)
Track Name: Seeds (Prod. BeenJAmmiN)
"Seeds" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
Gone to be left, it's a desolate place
Where the God wants the blessed to be celibate
My promise to them has no development but it's all I offer to them so I tell 'em it
Melanin, yours my one favorite element
Looking through the drawers I can't find my necklace
Cryin bout my poor sight, not so intelligent
But I want you more like the macho in gentlemen
Settlement, just a couple rebels on a pedestal
Lookin for the rest of you, they just wanna get it in
But I'm so enamored you should see my manners
You would be so flattered to fuck with the feminine
The touch give you medicine, the stuff and your head is in a rush, feeling delicate because you're developing a crush so you better keep it hush, i'm malevolent I cuss got a deficit of trust and I'm definite it's us
Us?
It's a thing I know you wanted to discuss, but I got too much ridin on you plus
If I don't piss you off I don't have to take the bus
I don't have to use my money I don't have to give up none
The funny about it is we're young
And we feel we can't change what we've become
Dark times sitting in the sun, thinking 'bout it's over when I hear it's just begun

Chorus:
Eyes closed, my time to talk and I froze
I hope they know that you're with me
I hope they go before you leave
I am my own, i let it be known, we are too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds, baby you're growing to some weeds Maybe you'll blow before the breeze
Baby you're so below degrees
I hope they know that you're with me
I hope they go before you leave
I am my own, I let it be known, we are too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds

Verse 2:
Exploit some of them, might get in a blood fight
More of them means more reason to flood like
Tears and you're ghost while I'm making your buds white
When you're here I'm the most clear in the sunlight
Everybody here is so deep into love life
Everybody here is believing they love life
But even everyone know they destined to one day leave the sun's face Roots live and then some die
Roots live and then some die
Don't know what it takes to get you living above tide
But if I let you drown, maybe I could pull you out
And you could sun dry
Bathe in the magma as hot as attraction
Fuck all your half ass shit and your fractions
I want it all, give me all the passion
Or give me none, give me none all I imagine
Be the one, be the one to call when I'm actin crazy
Or call when I'm at your house cuz when I go out that's the one place I tend to go for safety
My mind been a bit too daydream
Make an underground girl go mainstream

Chorus:
Eyes closed, my time to talk and I froze
I hope they know that you're with me
I hope they go before you leave
I am my own, i let it be known, we are too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds, baby you're growing to some weeds Maybe you'll blow before the breeze
Baby you're so below degrees
I hope they know that you're with me
I hope they go before you leave
I am my own, I let it be known, we are too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds
Too grown for all these seeds
Track Name: Impact (Prod. Phillipdrummond feat. David Backhash)
"IMPACT" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
Should be easy but I'm not sun kissed
Daughter don't matter when your son done missed 'bout some fun Pissed at my dumb young fist
Wish that I could take it but my tongue hummed, hissed
Do not uh know uh why it does what it does
I just know I love it cuz it brings me back to the fuckin rubbish it does
Whether they be taking me or punishing us
Just a couple of us, don't really like it when you're talking all that trouble to us
You get one shot, no one here will double it up
Know when you're from, not, quick so subtle to trust
Know you bubble it up, but it don't work that way, rubble and dust
So I guess that ima have another huddle to burn and I guess that ima have another bubble to bust

Chorus:
Did you get that? This, that?
Are you waiting to come out with a diss track?
Do the things that I do to you distract?
I only wanna be a part of the impact
But every time I try to call you, you sit back
You don't listen to the birds even intact, you don't listen to my words
Even in fact
You just kicked me to the curb and I did smack
Telling me this shit ain't real rap, when you can only pinpoint one girl in the field that, never had a chance to sign a better deal flat, down to the details and decor, a sealed cap
What female before wore heels flat? Not one that I can think of can appeal cats
Without doin a bunch of woman concealed chats
But no one ever understood they could feel that

Verse 2:
Allowing yourself to be walked on is not a principle appliance
Phone and my laptop, screen with the black on, scream to me what's up with digital alliance?
Wanna fiddle with the clients, tell 'em all about how I'm so little when I'm giant
But they just stick the finger middle, bitter when I'm highest
They don't understand that when I'm civil that I'm bias
Wanna hear the beat sizzle into silence? He walked in so chiseled so violent
I get it in through my lyrical alignments
Thought about you little through the nick of time and I can
Truthfully say that I don't even mind when
People wanna say things really please enlighten me
I wanna read what you write to me, first time I read a letter and I liked it
Ya'll wanna make me the center
Then cry over rhymes should've known where you had entered
Say I brainwashed her/him when I never,
She was that way before you even met her
I used to be you but more and even better
Now everything that's done is boring now the weather is storming, you're offended ignoring what I said to the four of my friends, poor you go ahead go and get her

Chorus:
Did you get that? This, that?
Are you waiting to come out with a diss track?
Do the things that I do to you distract?
I only wanna be a part of the impact
But every time I try to call you, you sit back
You don't listen to the birds even intact, you don't listen to my words
Even in fact
You just kicked me to the curb and I did smack
Telling me this shit ain't real rap, when you can only pinpoint one girl in the field that, never had a chance to sign a better deal flat, down to the details and decor, a sealed cap
What female before wore heels flat? Not one that I can think of can appeal cats
Without doin a bunch of woman concealed chats
But no one ever understood they could feel that
Track Name: My Kind (Prod. Mike C.)
"My Kind" - Lucy Camp

Verse 1:
Brevity baby, yeah I might be seventeen maybe
Depending on what you believe I'm not one to deceive but I got a few things that might make the jealousy hazy
For you I'd do anything crazy
Hydrangeas rest on your chest
and you're dressed in the best little ebony lacing
I've never seen such a breathlessly taking
Mask like that, bask in flask the last I've had was rancid ask me why we never happened
I say we did but the past I passed
I moved on so fast it lasted, not even a minute's half and you were used to my advantage i extended my life span

Chorus:
Open up to me and I will let you in
Let's ruin another bed spread
Do you feel less human?
Excuses, all the time
Sex uses all the mind
Death once a friend 'til it seduces all my kind
(x2)

Verse 2:
Way too anticlimactic, sadly I've had it with saps and dramatic uncanny semantics
Sad that it's gone but just happy i had it
That means I'm grown and I'm actually avid
Actually able to casually manage to stay in a place where I'm actually challenged
I always try my best to keep both you and my family balanced
But now vanity's here, and I seem to be acting so lavished
Suppose I'll have to be banished but vanity can it be gravity vanished?
And that is why I feel no agony
Light as a feather I hold no capacity, famished
You and I meeting soon, I don't believe that was the plan we established

Chorus:
Open up to me and I will let you in
Let's ruin another bed spread
Do you feel less human?
Excuses, all the time
Sex uses all the mind
Death once a friend 'til it seduces all my kind
(x2)

Verse 3:
To think about you I'll be doomed
Foolish ways like I'm immune
I know tonight will be our moon
Cuz there's a bride who needs a groom
If there's a time then it is soon
Don't give it second thoughts, please forget your thoughts
I know what's right if it's for you
By the likes of it, you'll find a chick
Who's like me but a bit more nice and thick
A psyche that'll make your saliva spit
But like me, you like 'em kinda sick
That's why we we'll never find a fit
You say hi I just get high and shit
When you speak it's only to me
Why is that the life I live?

Chorus:
Open up to me and I will let you in
Let's ruin another bed spread
Do you feel less human?
Excuses, all the time
Sex uses all the mind
Death once a friend 'til it seduces all my kind
(x2)
I, I, where we go we'll never know
It's a part of who I am, it's a part of who I am
it's a part of who I am, it's part of who I am and a part I'll never show